Not feeling so hot.

I feel so on the brink, deteriorating, shaky and wrong. I'm happy, I'm the person I've always wanted to be, but I feel wrong.
I'll stare into space... seeing nothing and feeling s if my head is about to explode, like I'll fade into the darkness....
I feel as if on the verge of passing out, like my breathes are slowing and I'm living with only a little oxygen flowing through my veins. I'm drowsy all the time, tired and unlively. I'm excited, I'm not held back by anything I only wish to succeed. I just don't know what's wrong.
Hypochondria runs in the family, I guess I should say that, but this is something because I've never felt like this before. It feels wrong. I don't feel good. I don't know what is wrong with me. i do'nt like feeling this sick, and weak, and gross. Unfocused. Skeptic.
I guess I could just write a bunch of words, taths' all these are in my feint stupor. Hysteria, i feel like I'm manually shutting down and all the little workers inside of my brain are closing up and locking up tonight, without telling me of course. I don't know what to do. Surely it doesn't make sense. Is there something I could take that could gelp me get more oxygen? I feel like that would make eeverything better, but.... I don't know. Ugh. I feel awful, and tired, and numb. But not in the hurt way, in the "I feel numb because i'm not functioning" kind of way.
What. The. Hell.