What I learned while feeling Awkward.

Sometimes we have to drag ourselves to places regardless of really what we’re feeling right? Okay so if we enjoy it nothing was lost but a heaping amount of curiosity takes its place. Because in the midst of turmoil and confusion we’ve found a single moment in time where we have found a peace where we don’t care about the outside. Or who looks in. Where we as human beings, with thirsty souls, want to continue on. Want to move PAST all the crap that’s happened.
But no one really ever knows about our past and the very intimate details of our lives like we do, thank goodness I’m not one to divulge the deepest and darkest of my soul. Because I have learned this and only this through my life:
“When you trust strangers; give them a title in your life before you really know them… What you tell them has no value like someone that is meant to understand you. Someone may not understand you for a very long time. But… at least you didn’t throw your heart around to every single stranger you let break into your life.”
When the debris and ashes of this war have settled down, and we are left to look at the wreckage that wreaked havoc on our homes. I will never blame the person for the mistake, only the influence that was secretly whispering to them in the midst of the blackest night. Subliminally, they were following the voice that influences them most. Everyone will grow up at some point, or so we hope. But that doesn’t mean we will grow up together.
I feel as if reverting back to immaturity is something we must do to relate to lost souls that we let come into our lives. When we allow the immaturity to thwart our ways of thinking, to control and convert us is when we need to step away. Regardless of age, we are all spiritually on a different level. Wanting to step down from where our understanding is, to try and help another is admirable. Wanting to belittle our understanding and yoke ourselves to someone of that lesser understanding will always throw away what we know to aid the weaker, younger spirit. Being yoked equally is all we could ever ask for when it comes to relationships.
So if there are darker forces behind those that have hurt us. Then I pray for you and that someday you might open your eyes to what these actions of yours may bring to those around you.
I hope someday, you learn to fight too. With the right person. For the right reason.
Even if it isn’t with me.
If a single word spoken is more powerful than an entire action- in a parallel universe- let not my lips be my gatekeeper holding me tight to wrought iron bars.